Columbine Excessive Faculty mass assassin Eric Harris started protecting a journal a yr earlier than he and Dylan Klebold slaughtered 13 and significantly and critically injured dozens and perpetually modified the response, and preventative measures taken towards, faculty shooters: locked doorways, drills, lockdowns and lockouts, police in faculties, faculty district insurance policies concerning securing faculties and safeguarding college students. However a lot of these have failed as is evidenced by the handfuls of mass faculty shootings since.
In April of 1998, Harris, then a junior at Columbine Excessive Faculty started protecting a journal, however he’d additionally lengthy been on-line with web sites, pages and chat rooms on AOL.
After Harris and Klebold have been arrested, charged, convicted and sentenced to neighborhood service, anger administration and counseling in 1998 for breaking right into a van and stealing pc elements, the 2 started planning. Many of those are discovered of their journals, handwritten ones transcribed, and on-line writing and rants, captured.
Within the Jefferson County Sheriff’s Workplace’s official sweeping and voluminous report on the Columbine Bloodbath of April 1999, a lot of those are described and included. Myriad web sites even have documented the ravings of the 2 teenagers and numerous books have been written that discover what made them tick. Harris, as has been extensively reported and confirmed, was a probable psychopath. Klebold, as troubled as his associate, was not nonetheless not labeled as such.
The journals supply a “glimpse,” because the JCSO famous, into the minds of the teenage mass murderers.
Right here’s what you could know:
A Legal Psychological Profile Discovered Eric Harris to be a ‘Malevolent Psychopath’ Primarily based on an Research of His Journal & On-line Posts
A yr to the day earlier than the bloodbath, Harris wrote, “The human race isn’t price combating for anymore …”
In his rants, ramblings, however typically coherent and articulate musings, if a thriller to the reader, Harris expressed his anger, violent nature and his God-complex. Harris believed his manner was the best way. After being rejected by the Marines as a result of he was taking an antidepressant, his writing took a decidedly darker flip. It’s reported he was not conscious that he’d been rejected, however the remedy was a part of a court-ordered sentence for his felony breaking and getting into, which he refers to in his journal, launched by the JCSO and transcribed and annotated by Peter Langman, Ph.D. and posted on the SchoolShootersInfo.com web site.
“My physician desires to place me on remedy to cease serious about so many issues and to cease getting offended. Nicely, I believe that anybody who doesn’t suppose like me is simply bullshitting themselves. Attempt it someday if you happen to suppose you might be worthy, which you in all probability will you little shits, drop all of your beliefs and views and concepts which have been burned into your head and check out to consider why your right here. However I wager most of you fuc*ers can’t even suppose that deep, so that’s the reason you have to die. How dare you suppose that I and you might be a part of the identical species after we are sooooooo totally different. You aren’t human. You’re a robotic. You don’t benefit from your capabilities given to you at start. You simply drop them and hop onto the boat and head down the stream of life with all the opposite fuc*ers of your time. Nicely god rattling it I gained’t be a part of it! I’ve thought an excessive amount of, realized an excessive amount of, came upon an excessive amount of, and I’m too self conscious to only cease what I’m considering and return to society as a result of what I do and suppose isn’t “proper” or “morally accepted.” NO, NO, NO. God fucking rattling it NO! I’ll sooner die than betray my very own ideas. However earlier than I depart this nugatory place, I’ll kill who ever I deem unfit for something in any respect. Particularly life. And if you happen to pissed me off prior to now, you’ll die if I see you. Since you may have the ability to piss off others and have it will definitely blow over, however not me. I don’t neglect individuals who wronged me, like . He won’t ever get an opportunity to learn this as a result of he might be lifeless by me earlier than that is found…”
Some believed the psychiatric remedy he was prescribed “exacerbated his aggressiveness.”
However a 2009 School of Saint Benedict and Saint John’s College prison character profile of Harris, discovered that, based mostly solely on his journal and on-line writing, that his habits was according to sadism, “malignant narcissism, pathological narcissistic character dysfunction with borderline and delinquent options, together with some paranoid traits, and unconstrained aggression.”
“Along with his core sadistic character sample, infused with delinquent and narcissistic options and a potential overlay of incipient paranoia, Eric Harris seems to be a detailed match for a malignant character composite …’the malevolent delinquent,’” researchers concluded.
Harris’ journal confirms that he’d been planning mass homicide for a yr earlier than April 20, 1999.
“Maintain this in thoughts, I need to burn the world, I need to kill everybody besides about 5 individuals, who I’ll identify later, so in case you are studying this you might be fortunate you escaped my rampage as a result of I wished to kill you. It is going to be very tough getting all of our provides, explosives, weaponry, ammo, after which hiding all of it after which really planting all of it so we are able to obtain our purpose. But when we get busted any time, we begin killing then and there.”
“Should you recall your historical past the Nazis got here up with a “closing answer” to the Jewish downside. Kill all of them. Nicely, in case you haven’t figured it out but, I say “KILL MANKIND” nobody ought to survive. All of us reside in lies [?]. Persons are at all times saying they need to reside in an ideal society, nicely utopia doesn’t exist. It’s human to have flaws. You realize what. Fuck it. Why ought to I’ve to clarify myself to you survivors when half of this shit I say you shitheads gained’t perceive and if you happen to can then woopie fucking do. That simply means you could have one thing to say as my motive for killing. And nearly all of the viewers gained’t even perceive my motives both! They’ll say “ah, he’s loopy, he’s insane, nugatory!…”
Klebold Was an Indignant, Depressed & Suicidal Teen & Aligned Himself With Harris Adopting the Delinquent Ravings, Excessive Violence & Superiority Advanced
In his journal, in his journal, launched by the JCSO and transcribed and annotated by Peter Langman, Ph.D. and posted on the SchoolShootersInfo.com web site, Klebold agreed with Harris that the 2 have been superior beings, extra “extremely developed” than everybody else. However his personal journal confirmed a way more weak “self-loathing and suicidal” teen.
However Klebold had critical anger points tied to his self-described lifetime of harassment by his friends and even his household, all of which is nicely documented; in class and at work at Blackjack Pizza. Following their arrest, Klebold started to extra demonstrably profess his need to behave out violently.
“… life is not any enjoyable with no little dying,” he wrote including after he killed others, he’d kill himself. Which is strictly what he did.
“I don’t slot in right here considering of suicide provides me hope, that I’ll be in my place wherever I am going
after this life … that I’ll lastly not be at struggle with myself, the world, the universe — my thoughts,
physique, all over the place, every little thing at PEACE in me — my soul (existence). & the routine continues to be
monotonous, go to highschool, be scared & nervous, hoping that folks can settle for me … that I
can settle for them …”
If there’s a theme in Klebold’s journal is that he’s deeply sad, suicidal and ultimately homicidal as he feels deserted and wronged; he was in love. His journal pages embrace many stuffed with hearts and the identify of a woman, redacted, with whom he was deeply in love. Pages and pages dedicated to this woman and his obsession along with her. He wrote notes to her, poems, declarations of affection. These emotions weren’t returned as a result of, as he wrote, she didn’t know him.
“…oooh god i need to die sooo unhealthy… such a tragic, desolate, lonely, unsalvageable i really feel i’m….. not truthful, NOT FAIR!!!! I wished happiness!! I by no means obtained it…”